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Friendly reminder [08 Jul 2030|02:56pm]
For those of you who have come here from fanfiction.net looking for the uncensored M-E rated material of my works, they are now all hosted on Ao3. Though the fics on here still remain locked (Dunno if LJ has changed it's policy or whatnot, doubt it cause I've seen Persona 4 fanfics on here with characters even younger than Hisoka as E rated material!), since I'm linking the fics off site, it should be okay.

You can also find Regret there as well, though it's still on fanfiction.net in the same form. Everything listed here is for Yami no Matsuei, save for Duel, which is for Star Ocean: Till the End of Time.

You're blushing again, Hisoka! - Co-written with rinoared. This is on Rinoa's ff.net profile, not mine. We co-wrote this together. Part 3 is up here, though tbh, part 3 is mostly Rinoa's work and not mine, cause she is a better lemon writer than I could ever hope to be. >.>

Heart to Heart - Part 3's lemon. I would strongly suggest reading the lemon part of this fic, as it's important to the story, but you can enjoy the story and skip the lemon.

One Wish - This isn't on fanfiction.net at all, but here it is. I still can't believe people picked this choice back in 2003. >.>

Temptation - This is pretty much E rated work; it's another co-written work done by me and rinoared. Beware of the warnings/notes too, this is a pretty damn 'mindfuck' type of story that I know a lot of people might not like.

Duel - I seriously don't know why this fic is so damn popular. I am dead serious when I say that, I've gotten a lot of positive feedback from this, and to be honest, I feel it's one of my weakest works besides anything that came before 'Heart to Heart'. Leave a comment on there and tell me why, because I just... don't get it? Would like to know the draw of this fic.

Waiting - This is the most recent fic I wrote for katsue_fox and rinoared (Though she's poofed, le sigh). It's pretty much another 'getting together build with lemon' type of fic, and it ended up running away from me, big time. It's also now officially my longest one shot piece. I actually originally started this in 2003, dropped it, picked it back up, dropped it again, and picked it back up again 10 years after. There's pretty much no warnings cept some angst coming from Hisoka's direction and lemon action.
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Holy shit, I come back from the dead! YnM fic, Waiting [15 Jun 2016|12:38pm]
Yay! And I bring fic! Yami no Matsuei fic! Like what the flipping hell!?

Title: Waiting
Rating: T and E
Paring: Hisoka/Tsuzuki
Genre: Angst/romance
Warnings: Flangst (fluff/angst), spoilers up to the Kyoto Arc, minor references to Tsuzuki's Shikigami
Summary: There are times where just saying 'I love you' isn't enough...
Comments: This fic is dedicated to both katsue_fox and rinoared.

You can read the comments in the links, though the Ao3 version is the 'real' version for this story. Why did I write this? Because I made a lot of promises way back before WoW sucked my life away from fandom.

As always, thanks to katsue_fox for the quick beta read and for being so encouraging. It's only due to her encouragement that this fic is even being posted.

Also, I strongly advise reading the Ao3 fic over the FF.net one, because the flow is better and the lemon is really important to the overall tone of the story. And because the story is so long, I'm just going to leave links up to go to them!

Waiting T rated version

Waiting E rated version
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Community challenges [01 Jan 2010|10:00pm]
Community: stagesoflove

Themes:

Attraction
Romance
Passion
Intimacy
Commitment

Community: 10_passions

Themes:

1. Secret Encounter
2. Along the Moonlit Bay
3. Sarcasm
4. Hidden from the World
5. His Place
6. Addicted To Your Touch
7. Don't Be Afraid
8. The Space Between Us
9. Starry Heavens
10. The Road Back To You
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Suikoden 2, Mirror Image [09 Oct 2007|10:05pm]
Title: Mirror Image
Rating: PG-13
Paring: Tir/Riou
Genre: Angst
Warnings: Spoilers for both 'bad' endings to both Suikoden 1 and 2, angst/dark themes, mild lime hints, under aged drinking
Summary: 'We are destined to watch everyone and everything fall... Friends, family, loved ones, whether by sword or by time, we can only sit back and watch them die... And yet, we will still live on, bound by our cruel fate...'
Comments: Written for 2006 yaoi_challenge. I realized I never put this story anywhere, so might as well here. The writing isn't too bad, but the story should've been fleshed out a lot more. Again, was too pre-occupied with WoW to really notice. :/

Castle name = Dynasty, since I could not find a default name for it, for the life of me.

We are a lot alike, you and I...Collapse )
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LJ meltdown and some changes [07 Aug 2007|10:59pm]
Well, due to the latest LJ meltdown and how they can't give a clear answers, any fics that have characters under age 18 that are R or above have been locked. You must friend this journal now in order to read fics of this nature.

The fandom this is really gonna affect is my Yami no Matsuei fics. Star Ocean 3 fanfics are unlocked since Fayt is 19 and not a minor.

I have friended everyone who has friended me so that they may view locked posts.

Q&A -

What the hell, you said you wouldn't lock your jornal EVER! So why now?

Basically, LJ has shown that this is not a safe haven for fanfic writers or for any people who write any sexual content with anyone under 18, fictional or not. They have banned people from the website for good for a picture of explict nature with no warning, even though there was no minor in the picture, because the character in question is a minor during canon, it was banned. Stupid reasoning, but that's what I got from what was being told.

I'm not gonna take the chance of 4 journals being purged, even though I kinda lost interest in LJ, I may pick up writing again sometime in the future and it would suck having to go to another website.

So what fandoms does this effect?

Currently, it affects really only the Yami no Matsuei fandom. All fics with any sort of lime in them have been locked save the Star Ocean 3 fandom since all the characters that I write for are above 18. All Sims stories have been deleted, so it doesn't affect it, but if I ever do get back into the Sims game, sadly, there will be no pr0n stuff unless it's people above the age of 18 or someone wants to host the stories on his/her site, sorry. :(

Hey, I came here to look for the uncensored version of 'Heart to Heart/Temptation/One Wish' and I don't have a LJ/don't want to sign up for an LJ! What the hell!?

All of these fics are hosted Ao3, with the exception of One Wish, under 'Starza'. One Wish isn't there because I am extremely lazy. >.> I'll add it up sometime when I can find the original document.

What about future stories?

Right now, I'm currently not in the mood to write, WoW takes up WAY too much time than it should, but should I do decide to write again, anything with a rating of PG-13 or higher or even implied lime will most likely be locked. Sucks, but yeah... :/ I will try to host them on other sites that allow NC-17 content though, including non-YnM stories.

Think that's all for now.
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Star Ocean: Till the End of Time, Albel/Fayt [09 Jul 2007|06:28pm]
Note: All Sims stories have been removed due to lack of interest on my part and that I can't host pictures for them anymore.

Title: Routine
Rating: PG
Pairing: Albel/Fayt
Genre: General
Warning: End game spoilers
Summary: Sometimes, the answer is right in front of you...
Prompt: Post-game day-in-the-life type story, with characterization over smut
Author's Notes: For yaoi_challenge 2007. Not really one of my better works. It was rushed since some things in life came up but I still wanted to make the deadline. Sorry, no smut. :(

Not archieved anywhere else cause the writing is beyond poor, since I was more into WoW even though I had several months in advance to write this story. Not beta-read either.

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Star Ocean, The Road Not Yet Taken [11 Mar 2006|12:19pm]
Title: The Road Not Yet Taken 1/?
Rating: PG-13, may rise later
Pairing: Minor Fayt/Sophia, Albel/Fayt
Genre: Angst/fluff/Humor
Theme: 10. The Road Back To You
Warnings: Main plot spoilers, Spoilers for Albel/Fayt's paired ending, warning for a bit of violence
Summary: While exploring an undeveloped planet, Fayt gets seperated from Albel. However, finding the swordsman won't be easy...
Comments: Part of a series for the 10_passions. Instead of writing 10 seperate stories based on all 10 themes, I'm writing one story on the same timeline using every 'part' as a theme. I dunno if this will reach a full 10 parts.

This part is unusually long. I don't know how it clocked in at nearly 10k words, it wasn't supposed to, believe me.

Um, sadly, this got so long that there wasn't enough room for notes. If you want to see the notes for this story, visit here.

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Star Ocean: Till the End of Time, Albel/Fayt [01 Mar 2006|02:22am]
Title: Destiny (5/5)
Rating: PG
Genre: Flangst (Yay for fluff/angst OTP!)
Warnings: No main story spoilers again
Summary: Sophia checks up on Fayt...
Word Count: 294
Comments: Ficlet written for stagesoflove community, this theme is 'Commitment'. Wow, at the end of the line already. @_@;;

I think I'm overall pleased with how this came out, this was my second challenge that I've ever participated in and writing for the same fandom.

Most of this is dialogue, hence why it seems a bit short.

YES, I'm working on the themes for the other community, it's just one story for it got way out of hand and it set up to writing a multi-chapter work using the themes.

This is where I belong...Collapse )
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Star Ocean: Till the End of Time, Albel+Sophia [25 Feb 2006|11:24am]
Title: Polarity
Rating: PG
Pairing: Albel+Sophia (!)
Genre: Fluff with sprinkles of angst
Warnings: Some plot spoilers, you may want to have played to the middle of disk 2, timeline sort of spoilers
Summary: Curiosity gets the better of Sophia. However, she may be getting herself into more than she bargained for...
Comments: I'll be honest, this is a revenge fanfic. It's so lame to write a fanfic out of revenge and I even question my motives as well, but really...

I have three reasons for writing this:

1. This is my revenge against the Albel/Sophia fans really who like bashing other pairings or don't show a tolerance for other people's preferences. This is to prove that while others may write about other pairings, that they actually, surprise, surprise, MAY like yours and don't appreciate or feel alienated because you bash their preferred pairings.

Honestly, I'm sort of surprised that my anger didn't leek into the fic and taint it, or the fact I wrote FLUFF when I was angry and upset.

2. This is also revenge against people who are omg, tehICK! against slash as well. Folks, just because what some people write is majority slash fics doesn't mean we don't like or don't enjoy het pairings. I'm really tired of being either one or other, when I like to sit on the line.

3. This is also an experiment of writing from someone else's PoV besides Fayt. Usually, when I stick to a fandom, I write just from one person's PoV, wheither it's first, second or third person (I've written from Tsuzuki's PoV for YnM in the past, but it wasn't as well received and I stopped after a bit). This is from Sophia's PoV. I'll have to admit, I don't favor Sophia at all, but I enjoyed writing this more than I shoud've.

Will there be a sequel to this? Probably not unless there is enough outcry for one, and it would have to rival Duel and go beyond. Honestly, at least now I can say I've written from a PoV beyond Fayt now.

If you're looking for a full blown romance, sorry, this isn't the story. There's hintings, but if you turn away, you'll miss them.

The title comes from how I feel about Albel and Sophia's personalities.

This takes place back on Elicoor II on disk 2. There's no huge main plot spoilers (Go me!), but you may have wanted to at least get up to this part.

Also, Albel is your seventh character and Nel is your eighth.

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Star Ocean: Till the End of Time, Albel/Fayt [22 Feb 2006|12:20pm]
Title: Destiny (4/5)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Flangst (Fluff/Angst, mostly angst though)
Warnings: No main story spoilers, shocking! HUGE spoilers on Albel's past
Summary: Fayt gets his question answered...
Word Count: 335
Comments: Ficlet written for stagesoflove community, this theme is 'Intimacy'. Corny summary, but it sums up this fic well.

Please be warned, this story contains massive spoilers on Albel's past. Most of this info can be found in the dictionary (I think you may need to get him as your 7th character, but I dunno for sure) and a few PA scenes as well.

Um, there is no set timeline between this part and the previous, it could be the next day or it could be some time down the line.

I think this is my favorite one because I love Albel and the idea in this fic isn't written on much.

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Star Ocean: Till the End of Time, Albel/Fayt [15 Feb 2006|01:02pm]
Title: Destiny (3/5)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Romance/bit of angst
Warnings: No main story spoilers, shocking! Minor spoilers on Albel's past
Summary: Fayt and Albel get into another arguement, only this time...
Word Count: 362
Comments: Ficlet written for stagesoflove, the theme for this one is 'Passion'. I think I sort of jumped a bit with their relationship, but I think it's okay, given the next two parts and the way they are.

I take back what I said before too, THIS was the hardest to write.

Oh, um, there are different theories about Albel's arm, since it's not 100% clear in the game. I'm using the one that benefits me the most. :X

This takes place after Albel/Fayt's ending, pretty much, so from here on, it's completely post game.

I never imagined things to turn out this way...Collapse )
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Star Ocean: Till the End of Time, Albel/Fayt [08 Feb 2006|06:45pm]
Title: Destiny (2/5)
Rating: PG
Genre: Flangst (Fluff/Angst) (In this part)
Warnings: No main story spoilers, shocking!, Albel/Fayt ending spoilers
Summary: Fayt is re-evaluating his decision to stay on Elicoor II...
Word Count: 434
Comments: Ficlet written for stagesoflove, the theme for this one is 'Romance'. Honestly, I think this theme was the hardest to come up with something for, considering your typical 'romance' isn't going to happen between these two.

Really, this isn't exactly 'Romantical' in nature at first glance, but if you look close enough, you can see something.

This can take place before or after Fayt and Albel's ending together.

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A few tiny annoucements [05 Feb 2006|02:22am]
First, a few annoucements:

1. Sims Stories - All the Sims stories are currently on hold. Why? Because I discovered that somehow through LJ, images were being put on other websites. So a big FU thanks goes out to them!

And I sort of lost interest, so feel free to give me the finger too thank me too. :X

I MAY actually come back and work with them sometime, only instead of posting the pictures on LJ, I post the story and pictures and give a link to my webpage instead, but that will take a bit of time.

So until further notice, they are on hold.

2. I will be 'sticking' a post on top of this web-blog for challenges for stagesoflove and 10_passions. All posts will have the theme, and each theme will link to the story on this LJ only (NOT to the community). All the stories concerning these challenges will have an extra 'theme' added in for reference.

All these stories will be written for Star Ocean: Till the End of Time and will feature Albel and Fayt either in a romantical sense or a friendship sense. The first one will be the most likely for these two characters, so... wait, really, do I need to say this, considering what 90% of I write is slash? :P

3. Sorry to disappoint people who come here for YnM fics, but it's pretty unlikely that I'll be writing for YnM anytime, now or in the future. I apologize in advance, I'm just not interested in the fandom anymore. I can't make any promises, but I may be working on a part 3 to Regret and finishing up 'Waiting', because I really hate blowing off good ideas.

Right now, the challenges will be first priority.

4. Finally, I will be going over old fanfiction soon and put tags on them, fandom first, and pairing. If it's a Sim Story, instead of fandom, it will be labeled 'Sims story' instead. Stories will NO LONGER be saved into memories.
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Star Ocean: Till the End of Time, Albel/Fayt [01 Feb 2006|01:58pm]
Title: Destiny (1/5)
Rating: PG
Genre: General/Hinted Romance (In this part)
Warnings: Minor spoilers
Summary: After the defeat of Luther, Fayt reflects and come to a decision...
Word Count: 460
Comments: Ficlet written for stagesoflove, the theme for this one is 'Attraction'. Note, this take place between the very end of the game, but before one of Fayt's paired ending (Whoever you get, but the choice is obvious with who I paired him up with. :D).

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OMG, LIEK AN UPDATE! [02 Oct 2005|02:42am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Well, nearly a year since I updated this thing. @_@;;

First off, I took the Sims thing down. Sadly, my game kept crashing out on me and I didn't have the time to really bother fixing it. So sorry if you were really anticipating for those. :/

Secondly, there may be a few fics coming soon. I won't make any promises when they will come out, as I'm taking college classes, looking for a job, and actively playing World of Warcraft. So these fics could come out a few days from now or a few months from now, judging how well I update things. *rolls eyes*

Finally, I'll leave you with small tidbits of the fics I've worked on and am currently working on. Abandoned pieces listed here MAY have a small chance of being written for in the future, but for now, I consider them work that I will never finish.

Tentative Title: Regret, Part 2
Completion: 80%
Priority: High

Comment: You know, I was never going to plan on working on 'Regret' ever again. It was a nicely done Hisoka piece that I felt was good on it's own. But a few months ago, I got an idea to turn it into a mini-anthology.

All of part 2 is written, but it's un-betaed and I may want to change a few things. This is a fic that will most likely come out first than anything on here.

Part 2 features Tsuzuki, Part 3, Tatsumi, and finally, Part 4 features Watari, which will be the biggest challenge. Tsuzuki and Hisoka's parts go hand-in-hand, but Tatsumi and Watari's parts will be away from them. While they DO mention Tsuzuki and Hisoka, what will be the theme in their story will be off to the side of what's going on between Tsuzuki and Hisoka.

I haven't decided if I want their parts to go hand-in-hand yet.

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Tentative Title: Waiting
Completion: 40%
Priority: Medium to High

Comment: I wrote this fic actually because of a discussion going on in pennypaperbrain's journal nearly a year ago. Yes, this fic is THAT old. This was also supposed to be a present for rinoared, so there was supposed to be some sort of lime/lemon. However, I got sidetracked and never completed this. I'd like to finish it one day, because I love the ideas.

You can also think of this as an AU version of 'Regret', only a lot more different and more 'omg, happily eva after!'

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Tentative Title: Blur
Completion: 15%
Priority: Low

Comment: This fic was supposed to be a multi-chapter Muraki/Tsuzuki, Tsuzuki/Hisoka. Basically, dark, a lot of fucked-up-ness, and the like. I showed it only to a few people and later abandoned it, even though I had the ending, prologue and first chapter written out.

I really do want to work on this story someday, because the idea has a lot of promise. I had the plot points all mapped out and everything. But until things calm down here and I stop playing so much WoW, this fic won't, sadly, see the light of day.

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Tentative Title: None
Completion: 10%?
Priority: Abandoned

Comment: I just randomly found this little PwP Hisoka/Tsuzuki piece. I think I liked the character interaction more than anything with this piece, which is sadly, not in the tidbit. It's pretty much abandoned, at this point, considering the writing style is 2-3 years old compared to my current.

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Tentative Title: Darkness Within, Part 3
Completion: 20%?
Priority: Abandoned

Comment: I think I've given up all hope on ever finishing this. I think I may remove part 2, and just leave it as a one-shot, because the first part stands out as a one-shot on it's own. I wanted to end it in a very fucked up manner, but at the rate I'm going, it'll never be complete.

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Tentative Title: Seduction
Completion: 40%?
Priority: Abandoned

Comment: Another abandoned piece. This was supposed to be a request fic for katsue_fox, but I never finished it for personal reasons and just a loss of interest. I feel bad about it, but I don't like forcing myself to write on something that I have little to no inspiration for.

It's very unlikely I'll finish this piece, personal reasons again. Shame, because I really liked where this fic was going.

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Tentative Title: Reunited
Completion: 15%
Priority: Low

Comment: This is a FF7 piece I worked on that I eventually abandoned. I wanted to write a Zack/Cloud fic, but get around the obvious Cloud/Tifa that screamed out to me, and NOT bash Tifa in the process.

This would have worked around a theory me and my sister had about Zack. However, Advent Children completely destroyed the theory. Nevertheless, I think if you ignore AC, this could be a decent AU.

Very very unlikely that I'll finish this anytime soon, but I still would like to write and play with this idea.

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And that's about it for now!

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Star Ocean: Till the End of Time, Duel [07 Dec 2004|08:09pm]
Title: Duel
Rating: NC-17
Fandom: Star Ocean: Till the End of Time
Pairing: Albel/Fayt
Genre: Romance/Humor?, PwPish in plot
Warnings: Albel/Fayt's paired ending spoilers, no main game plot spoilers, lime/lemon?
Summary: Albel has challenged Fayt to a fight. Only it's not a fight he's normally used to...
Comments: This was written for the yaoi_challenge.

This really isn't full blown NC-17 to me, but it crosses the R boarder.

A huge thanks goes out to rinoared for the beta job. ^_^

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Star Ocean 3 ficlet, Regret [21 Nov 2004|02:50pm]
Title: Regret
Rating: G-PG
Pairing: Minor Fayt/Sophia, Albel/Fayt
Genre: General?
Warnings: Minor main plot spoilers, Spoilers for Albel/Fayt's paired ending
Summary: Fayt wonders if he made the right decision.
Comments: VERY tiny ficlet that I had originally started for the yaoi_challenge, but decided to ditch it. I didn't want to abandon the work completely, so it came out as a small ficlet. There will probably be ideas in this fic in another story, but for now, I wanted to post something up.

And YES, I know it's the same title as another story. This one isn't as emotionally strong as the YnM story, so tut on you!

No plans to post this anywhere else currently, it may be abandoned or it may be fixed up later on.

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Yami no Matsuei, Memories [18 Oct 2004|10:11pm]
Title: Memories
Rating: PG
Pairing: Tsuzuki/Hisoka
Genre: General
Warnings: The usual spoilers, up to Kyoto, Hisoka's past, MANGA version
Summary: Hisoka reflects on memories...
Comments: I'm saddened of the lack of birthday fics for Hisoka. :( It's a little late, but let's say inspiration hit me. Yes, I KNOW I wrote a fic with the same title and pretty much, the SAME summary, but it seems to fit this story too, so nah nah!

It is VERY important you take note of the version I'm going by, because, in this version, I'm going by the manga version. You'll see in one memory, where the fic differs from the anime.

Some inspiration from a manga I read recently too. *coughs*

This is so not my normal style, I think, but... *shrugs*

Past, Present, Future...Collapse )
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Fanfics [25 Sep 2004|10:58am]
Here is a list of fanfics, listed by fandoms and pairings (Serious warnings included along with co-writers).

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If I missed a fic, let me know.
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Few minor announcements [24 Sep 2004|11:59pm]
First, no, I'm not dead. :P

Second, all recent fanfics have been saved as memories. In addition, I cleaned up some of the memories section, you can now find fics by fandom, and title. 'Drabbles' was also put up.

In case anyone who has friended this journal and not my own, I now have a website. You can find all fanfiction here.

Third, Non Servim, the fanfic, not the drabble, has been removed for personal reasons. The Agre drabble has been removed, since I'm no longer part of the RP.

Finally, 'The Little Things' will probably remain as a draft. It will still remain here, but it will most likely not be worked on anymore.

Am working fics in the meantime, not dead, just 'busy'. >.> Am also thinking of a Hisoka birthday fic too, so expect that to be up next month.

Will put up a list tomorrow for all fics at this point for easy readage.

Edit: Also, 'Through the Darkness and into the Light' and 'Mending and Melting of Hearts' were removed as they are discontinued. I apoligize in advance to the readers for them, but I lost interest in them long ago.

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